Comfortable

I realized today how comfortable I am. It hit me when we were having a goodbye party for a departing co-worker.

I thought, “That’s gonna be me in 9 months.”

I’ve lived in the same little apartment for 2 years. Worked at the same place for 2 years. Gone to class and clinic in the same building for 2 years. I’ve reached a really nice point in my life, a nice routine of work, school, relaxation.

And then suddenly, today at about 12:25 pm while I was standing upstairs in the “goodbye gathering”, my mind switched into transition mode. It was as if I saw a bright orange sign flashing “Big Changes Ahead”. Not that I haven’t already thought about graduation, moving, finding a “real” job, or any of the other challenges coming my way, but today it really started to sink in.

In some ways, I’m going back at square one, where I was two years ago, getting ready to move, clueless about where I’d find a job, clueless about what this whole grad school thing was all about.

In some ways, I’d like to stay in this comfort zone. I can’t. Time is pushing on ahead, and the Lord is taking me further into this adventure that is life by faith in him. And like any adventure, it isn’t always easy. But it’s his best for me.

I’ll take that over “comfortable” any day.