illusioned

Day 5

“the state or condition of being deceived; misapprehension.” (definition courtesy of dictionary.com)

I realized recently that in order to be “disillusioned”, one must first be “illusioned”. I find myself frequently disillusioned, and in many ways, this troubles me.

When I am disillusioned with our broken government, it is because I have been deceived into thinking it can fix our problems. When I am disillusioned with a friend who has let me down, it is because I have deceived myself into thinking humans are capable of always holding up their end of the bargain. When I am disillusioned by a spiritual leader’s failure, it’s because I’ve forgotten that they are sinners too. When I am disillusioned with myself, it is because I have misapprehended how evil my heart is. Hint: “it’s desperately wicked”  (Jeremiah 17:9).

I want to walk in the light of God’s Word, in his truth, seeing things as they are, seeing me as I am, and most importantly, seeing God as he is. I want to stop being illusioned.